19th April 2006 - I need a special kind of buddy....

I've just finished my photoshoot for Marie Claire magazine and I'm freeeeeezing!

Last night me, Jord and Emma stayed in and watched crap TV then Emma stayed at mine. We stayed up chatting in bed til about 3.30am; I'm sure the neighbours could hear us and are probably thinking "oh yeah? Girl in bed with you eh?!" - never mind.

This morning we got up at 8am and tidied the house. The woman interviewing me came at 10am with my publicist Jo. The piece is about Kim. I won't go into detail but let's just say I spent half the morning in tears. After that, we had 2 hours before the photographer was due to come so Jo and I shot into Brentwood to get food and then came back here to eat it. After that I jumped in the shower and had just finished drying my hair when no less than 5 people turned up! There was the photographer and her assistant, the stylist, the make-up artist and the picture editor. As per normal they wanted me looking "natural" - no surprise there then ;) so me and the make-up artist set off upstairs to my boudoir make-up room to make me look "pretty". Two hours later I emerged looking half decent with curly, messy hair and hardly any slap on. They had already decided that we would do the shoot in my local park so we all got in our cars and drove the half a mile in convoy. I took Paddy with me so that he could have a run while we were shooting. We've just got home and it's now 7pm. Because we were standing around so long, we all froze and now I am finding it hard to warm up!

It was a good day though and the piece is going to be fab. It'll be out in the July issue I think but I'll keep you posted so you can all rush out and get it to see me minus the slap and in classy clothes! My mum will be so happy!

Tonight Jord has a gig in Chelmsford so Lauren and I are going to pop there for a while. Tonight is clearly musician's night as Rusty also has a gig (in London) and even Tony trumpet has band camp!

After the gig I am going to come home and watch all the things I've Sky-plus'd. God that's a genius invention! I'm never short of things to watch now and you can even "series link" all your favourite programs so that you never miss an episode. At the moment I have series-linked Monkey Business (a series about the Monkey sanctuary in Dorset), Strictly Dance Fever (there's a girl from Brentwood in the final ten!! Vote Lana!), Stacked (cos Pammie's in it) and No 1 Leicester Square. Har Mar Superstar was on it a few weeks ago and Russell Brand asked him about doing the sky dive with me. He laughed and said it was amazing and then Russell Brand asked him if it was true that he was scared of hitting a bird on the way down. I laughed so hard I nearly wet myself!

You know how I always say I want to be single and how every time I split up with a man I don't want one again for ages? Well, that still stands, I DON'T want a man; I've just been thinking lately that a "buddy" would be nice. You know the type of buddy I mean. It normally follows a word beginning with "f". The thing is, the last thing I want now is a bloke getting all involved in my life. I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want anyone to have any say in what I do and I don't want someone moving into my perfect new house. What would be nice however, is someone to call up as and when I need them. You know.... Someone who would come and watch a film with me, give me cuddles, show me a good time (nudge nudge, wink, wink) and just be a good laugh WITHOUT being too demanding, without needing to be with me 24/7, without depending on me for anything and without falling in love with me. The only thing I would want is for them to be exclusive to me. I mean, I wouldn't be able to handle a casual partner who was screwing around with anything that moved. That would not be right. Surely this sort of thing can't be that hard to find, you would think. Wrong. It's VERY hard to find. Don't get me wrong, I could go and pull a bloke any night of the week but I don't want to do that. I want something a bit more than just a one-night-meaningless-stand but I don't quite want full-blown relationship. There's gotta be some fit blokes out there who want the same, surely?! The annoying thing is that I think they do exist; it's just that I can't seem to find them. Every bloke I meet or already know is either a total player or just far too nice for me. I don't want a puppy dog but I don't want a b*stard. I want someone in the middle; someone who'll come over when I want them to and show me a good time and who, when I'm busy will go off and do their own thing without feeling the need to shag every ropey bird in sight in the mean time. Anyway, I won't keep on about it. It's just one of things in life that will always bug me; like - why do you never see baby pigeons?!

Apart from that I'm very happy. I've booked my flights for Linsey Dawn Mackenzie's wedding. Kyle and I fly out next month for it and I can't wait!!! A few days away is just what I need now (apart from a fit bloke) and I can't wait to see Linsey and the baby. I want to try and book a proper holiday soon but it's quite difficult. I can never do anything til the last minute, which is why I hardly ever go away with my friends. They all have to book their time off work months in advance, whereas I normally only know a week beforehand if I can go away or not. I'll just have to wait til I get a boyfriend and then whisk him off to Barbados, like I do every year with whatever bloke I'm with. Lucky things these boyfriends of mine, aren't they?!

Anyway, I had better be off as Lauren will be here any minute and I'm not ready for the gig yet. I want to at least put some eyeliner on before I go out!

Happy Wednesday

Love and Kisses Jodie

Xxx

P.S there are loads of new photos in the gallery. Check them out. Also check out the Doggies gallery cos there are new ones in there of me and Paddy too.

To listen to my brother Jordan's band and their own songs, click this link:

www.myspace.com/jordanandthesection