26th January 2007 - I'm buying baby clothes!

Good morning everyone. I hope you are fine and well. I am over my ranting (for now anyway). When I last wrote I was about to be bombarded with people at my house and great fun it was too! There was Jordan, Lashes, Jenna, Alex, Stiffy, Lauren and me and we spent the night telling funny stories about things that had happened to us (ie. like a certain someone wetting the bed recently and it WASN'T me! lol).

We spent the night laughing until our sides hurt and Lashes gave me extra attention cos he knew I was pissed off about the story-selling ex! I've had a really good few days; largely due to the fact that I have realised I just don't care anymore if the Boil wants to sell stories on me. He can go ahead. Bottom line is that you lot know the truth and my friends and family know the truth and that's all that matters. Anyway; my brain ache is over and I'm feeling chilled and happy.

The other reason I'm so happy is that my mate Fit Bod and his girlfriend Jo had their baby last Saturday. They brought her round yesterday for the afternoon. Little Amelia is the cutest thing in the whole world! We did a whole photo shoot in my house with her. I was working all morning but was able to finish early to get home to see them all. I bought a load of clothes for the baby (but not just your average baby clothes); baby clothes shopping is my FAVOURITE type of shopping and I know all the best places to buy stuff. This, however, is the first time I've been able to buy for a little girl so I am in my element! I got her loads of really trendy romper suits and t-shirts. Of course everything is pink! I said to Jo and Fit Bod that I'll leave all the normal clothes up to everyone else to buy and she can have all the outrageous stuff from me ie. one t-shirt says on the front "MY mummy is a yummy mummy!"

Anyway, Amelia is the most amazing thing I've ever seen. I've known Fit Bod since we were about 12 years old and in recent years we have become really close mates. He's like a male version of me (totally crackers) and Jo I have known about 8 years. It's the first time in my life that two people who I know really well have had a baby. Normally I know one half of the couple and don't know the other half that well but Fit Bod and Jo have both been good mates of mine for ages. It's a lot more special when you know both halves of the couple because you really feel like the baby is the most precious thing in the world! I keep welling up when I think about her and yesterday Fit Bod himself was welling up every 5 minutes! It's safe to say that everyone around them feels emotional and ecstatic! I am soooooooo happy for them and I can't wait til they want to go out and leave me to baby-sit! Seeing Amelia has made me all broody again (it happens every time one of my friends has a bay) but I know that deep down I'm not ready for one yet so instead I will just enjoy being around Amelia and spending loads of money on her. Because I know I won't have one any time soon, I enjoy living out all my own baby desires on other people's babies (ie. buying them designer clothes and shoes). It's so mush fun!!!!!! All the things I'm buying for her are the things I would buy my own baby if I had one! She's gonna be the most spoiled baby in the world!

She really is beautiful (and I know everyone says that about babies but she REALLY is!). I feel so proud that my two mates have created such a perfect little bundle of joy! Of course we took hundreds of photos and I'm going to go and have them printed out and put in an album for Jo and Fit Bod today. Jordan came round to see her too and he went all gooey. Jord loves babies and while he was holding her he kept saying "look at her little finger nails!" and "look at her eyelashes!" I know that people have babies all the time but it's such a big thing when two people you love have one!

When they left to go and visit Jo's mum and dad, I went to meet Lashes. He took me out for dinner last night and afterwards we went to meet Stiffy, Jenna, Veronica and La Tasca man and woman (La Tasca man is Steve from treble twenty - I know someone in his office reads this so you can tell him from me that I'm talking about him on here! Ha ha). We all had a drink in the pub and then me and Lashes went to the giant 24 hour Tescos to buy dog food and then came home and collapsed in bed. We were both knackered due to staying up the night before til 4am chatting about what we both want and where we see our relationship going. He knows he's only got about 16 days left (joke babe!).

Yesterday morning I spent doing interviews for papers and magazines to promote my new Living TV show. I am so excited! I can't wait for it to be shown; 1st March people - put it in your diary! Lol. It's going to be really good. I was so excited that I was going to see Amelia that I told every journalist about her (and probably bored them to death). I kept squealing with delight when I thought about her!

This morning I was up at 6am (Lashes always wakes me up for a "cuddle" in the morning) and then I dropped him at the station to go to work. He offered to get a cab but I wanted to drop him cos it forced me to get up and I wanted to write a blog! Otherwise I would have stayed in bed til about 10am (which is lovely, especially with two warm bulldogs to cuddle) but today I have lots to do!

It's now 8am. The house is all sparkly and clean and smells of fresh linen (cos my cleaners have been), the dogs have been fed and are snoozing on the floor next to me and I am grinning as I type this cos I'm so happy! I went a bit nuts in Tescos last night and bought a load more baby clothes. Tescos do really good baby clothes surprisingly. One romper suit says "baby diva" on the front and another says "star in the making". Ha ha - already I'm grooming her to be famous! Fit Bod has already said that he might put her into child modelling though! We love it! Next week I am taking Jo and Amelia to a designer baby shop I know and I'm going to get her a load of D&G and Moschino romper suits! Oh god I love it!

So...... what else can I say? Well....... Dave Boil is no longer bothering me. For all I care he can sell stories about me forever more like all the other losers before him. He's only making himself look stupid and desperate! Me... well I'm totally happy and calm. I have a fit new man (with the most beautiful face ever), my two mates have just had the most beautiful baby in the world and my career just keeps getting better and better. I have a feeling that 2007 is going to be my year. It bloody wants to be anyway - I've worked my arse off to get where I am now and I haven't had it easy I can tell you! It's about time people started giving me some credit now me thinks!

Ha ha - and something funny: I put a pic of Lashes on Myspace and the caption I put with it says "Girls (and gay men) - look at his beautiful face" or something similar. I've had about 5 people mistake that to mean he's gay! lol. Sorry to disappoint you but he's straight as they come. I just meant "look at how handsome he is!" NOT "he's available to any gay man that wants him!" ha ha. He really is stunning though. I could just sit and look into his eyes all day long!

I hope you all have a great day. I'm off to make some breakfast and for anyone that read Boil's story in the paper; that means some toast and a load of fruit; NOT half a bottle of Southern Comfort. Ha ha. Contrary to his lies, I am not an alcoholic and I don't even like Southern Comfort! When he spouted that crap I was tempted to take a picture of the inside of my fridge and put it on Myspace just to show that actually, all I have in there is bottles of Evian and tons of fruit! Then I thought; do I really care? Does anyone really believe I'm an alcoholic? Erm.... No. I wouldn't be capable of sitting writing this every day if I was smashed and I certainly wouldn't be able to work 18 hour days like I have been doing for the last two months! Twat.

Loads and loads of love to you all.

Kisses and warm babies and hugs from bulldogs!

Jodie

P.S here's a little poem a lovely man called Si wrote for me on myspace:

Thy dashing Brentwood buxom blonde,
From the evil Boil she did abscond,
To search for her knight,
Her Mr Right,
Well miss marsh don't scale too wide,
As Iam right here to move to your side,
While to me you are the best girl in the world,
Within this ditty my admiration of you is unfurled,
You give hope to the many of us out there,
Who have been bullied or pressured and of whom no one did care,
So while you fight and march on, big and strong,
I hope our paths cross and that it won't be too long,
All the best for all you do over the coming week,
For a bloke to cheat on you, he must be a freak.

Si - love you! x x x x x x

P.P.S "Smile and the world smiles with you!"

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