Oh my God, sorry I haven't written in a few days - it's been a bit manic around here lately! I don't even know where to start and I don't know what to tell you. Remember recently I said I felt like I was on the verge of something really big? I felt like something amazing was about to happen and that I could feel my life was about to change for the better (remember I also said all my friends think I'm a white witch cos I'm never wrong!) Well - here's the thing - my life has changed. MASSIVELY.
I know this is going to be really frustrating to all who read it but I can't even tell you what's going on!!!!! Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh! I'm frustrated even having to write those words! Basically something has been happening to me over the last year and a half and all of a sudden everything I ever wanted has just landed in my lap. That's all I can say! The last week has been the best of my WHOLE life. I have never known my cheeks to ache so much from smiling and laughing! When the time is right to tell you, I will tell you everything and you will love it! Right now I need to keep pinching myself to check this is all real. I keep thinking I am going to wake up and it's all been an amazing (but cruel) dream! Ha ha. It's so difficult for me to even write about this and to not even tell you what's happened but put it this way - it's so big that I haven't been able to eat for a week. I feel sick, I've got butterflies, my head is spinning and my feet haven't touched the floor since the weekend. It is so true that you have to go through the sh*t to get to the good stuff cos this year has been one of the worst of my life and now I have hit the jackpot! This is the good stuff alright............
I assure you it's the best story I'm ever going to write. So good, in fact, that I am thinking of turning it into a book of it's very own. Even my mum and the 5 friends that know about this have said to me "you should write a book on this!" - it's gonna make you laugh, cry & cringe all at the same time! ha ha.
So, aside from all the things I can't tell you - what else is new? Well, I've been working and partying hard (as per normal). Went out at the weekend and went nuts and then went to a meeting first thing Monday morning in London after being awake for 48 hours (it was a REALLY heavy weekend). Kyle and Sarah were with me all weekend and they had the best time too. They were there to share in my joy and they are as excited as me right now. The happy vibes and buzz I'm giving off are affecting everyone around me! They keep ringing me to check I haven't passed out from sheer excitement! ha ha.
What else is new? Of yeah - I had a new tattoo today! That brings the total up to 15! That's an odd number so obviously I will need to go and get another one soon to make it even again! Ha ha. I know I've got problems and I'm totally addicted to tattoos but this one (like the 'Life's Too Short' one) has a very special meaning! I WILL tell all very soon! You have to keep watching this space cos sooooooooo many good things are coming. I have got the best stories for you and also I am going to share with you my secret key to happiness. Ha ha. Everyone can be this happy - they just need to see the things I see in life! I know I sound like I've lost the plot but believe me I haven't - like I said recently on blog - I feel the sanest now I've ever felt in my life. It's like I am finally using every bit of my brain to achieve what I want and to be happy. Everything has suddenly become clear to me and I have taken steps to get where I want to be. And f*ck me - I am EXACTLY where I want to be right now! Woooooohoooooooo! I never knew life could be this good.
Anyway, what else? I'm trying to think of things I can tell you other that my big secret! It's so hard cos all I want to talk about is my happiness but I can't do that without telling you why I'm so happy. Never mind - won't be long til I can spill the beans and share my joy.................. Nope can't think of anything at all worth telling you (cos my whole brain is consumed with thoughts of what's just happened - total brain melt-down!) - nothing and yet everything has changed for me. I feel like I've been reborn! Ha ha. Can't stop smiling like a wally and even keep feeling like I want to cry from sheer happiness. Actually I did cry today but that's a part of the whole story so I'll tell you that when I tell you the rest. It's gonna be a long one!
Anyway, I'm off to check Myspace now for messages! If you still haven't found me on there, then here's my page: www.myspace.com/youwishiwasyourbird
I've said it before and I'll say it again - I've had over 3000 messages and although I appreciate them sooooooooooo mush, I really don't have time to reply to them all so please don't think I'm rude or be offended if I don't get back to you! I only set the bloody thing up to promote my website! Ha ha. Anyway, Kyle loves a message so send him one (he's on my list of top friends) - he'll reply cos he sits around bored and loves chatting to people! Ha ha. Thank you so mush for all the messages I've already had! You lot are amazing and make my life worth living!
All my love Jodie x x x x x x x x
P.S I love you!!!!
P.P.S Quote for the day: "My happiness is not a means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal. It is its own purpose." Ayn Rand (writer & philosopher)
And
P.P.P.S second quote for the day (we needed two today cos they are both appropriate to how I'm feeling) - "Life finds its purpose and fulfilment in the expansion of happiness" Maharishi Mahesh Yogi
Sorry - I'm giving a whopping THREE quotes today cos this applies too - "Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today." James Dean.
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