It's Friday afternoon and I can't actually be bothered to write anything. I filmed a TV show yesterday with Darren Day, Fallon from Dynasty, Steve Strange, Sarah Cawood, Lee Stafford and Alex Zane. It's like a comedy version of "The Salon". It's for Children in Need. They asked me to bring Paddy and Lyla along for a doggy psychic reading (which was quite amusing although I couldn't work out whether the woman was spot on because she actually COULD talk to animals or because she just knew loads about me and was blagging it). Nevertheless Paddy and Lyla liked her and had a nice time. Darren Day gave me a French manicure (which actually isn't bad!) and I told Emma Samms (Fallon) that I was her biggest fan when I was a kid. I remember my mum and dad letting me stay up late to watch Dynasty.
I didn't get home til after 8pm, by which time Lauren was at mine waiting for me. We shot into Brentwood to get a take-away for dinner and then watched a very disturbing film called Karla that made both of us feel like we wanted to slit our wrists by the end. I do not advise watching it as it's not even mildly entertaining. Neither of us could actually speak by the end. We felt like the life had been sucked out of us and our brains had melted.
After that I read a book in bed til about 2am and then crashed out spooning Lyla. I got up early this morning and have been chilling out all day. It's the first time in ages I've either had a day off or just had a day to myself. It was nice to be on my own to be quite honest. I had some lunch and read some more of a new book I've started and stayed in my pyjamas til about 2pm. Eventually I got bored of my own company and got dressed to go and pay my mate Gary a visit in Brentwood. We had a coffee and a chat about life and he wanted to know all about the two boys I've just dumped. I explained that I'd had enough and that while it was fun while it lasted, I know that deep down I truly want to marry Nicky Hayden, Skunk boy from California, Ashley from X Factor, Scott Sullivan (if he had a personality transplant) or Eminem. Other than that I want my own space. I'm always looking to do something different or to have fun and I get bored too quickly. Unfortunately I had become bored with the threesome set-up. There's only so many times you can look at a man's face before you get bored (unless it is Ashley from X Factor and then I think you could look at it FOREVER and never get bored!) and I need to look for something new now. I'll probably go back to harassing Fancy Boy cos we all know I won't rest until I teach him a lesson (in the bedroom I mean). Lauren thinks I treat sex as "revenge" - I won't go into it now - that's a blog for another day, but I do think she's right!!!
Earlier on I was chatting to a male friend of mine. He claims to be "in love" with his bird, yet he's cheated on her about a hundred times (and she's cheated on him once - well that's the only one time he knows about). They reckon they are "so good" together and have such a "great" relationship. Sorry - I just can't see it. He's moaning to me that she's "the one" and he doesn't want to lose her but he sleeps with a different girl every week behind her back. She knows about his cheating but she still takes him back. What's that all about?! The only time it is acceptable to turn a blind eye to cheating is if you're a gold-digging bitch and you're going out with a very rich man. Then and only then is it ok to ignore his infidelities; because you don't want to give up your luxurious lifestyle. Personally I would never go out with a man for his money (maybe that's my problem!) but I do understand that women who want a certain lifestyle (and can't be arsed to get off their lazy butt and work for it), get with rich men, allow them to get away with cheating and then take a fit lover themselves to keep them happy (ie. fit gardener in Desperate Housewives). Other than that, if you're with someone purely for the fact that you love or fancy them then I CANNOT understand why you'd allow them to cheat on you. It's just wrong. By cheating on you, that person is saying "I don't give a sh*t about you, you don't do it for me, I need to sleep with other people to be fully satisfied, you're not The One, I have no intention of marrying you, you're an easy shag cos no matter what I do you'll still want me and I don't respect you cos if I did I wouldn't be sleeping around" Surely that's enough to make you walk away from the rat and never want to see him again. Then again these girls clearly don't even respect themselves so why the hell should their man respect them?! They all deserve each other I suppose.
I just know that no matter how mush I thought I loved someone; if I caught him cheating on me, his knob would be rammed so far down his own throat that he wouldn't even be able to say "sorry". You don't think I told the world about Fran's baggy foreskin and skid-mark pants for a laugh do you?! He'll definitely think twice about cheating on a bird again - that or he'll go out with really thick girls who'll never be clever enough to catch him (or get revenge in any decent way). Oh no, cheating doesn't exist in my world. What's the point in being with someone if you're looking around at what else is on offer? Why not just be single and sample all the delights you want instead of being caught and having to lie or argue your way out of it?!
It's totally beyond me why anyone would want to be in a destructive relationship like my friend clearly is. He and his bird argue day and night. They fancy each other like mad but that's all they've got (and clearly no matter how mush he fancies her, she's still not enough for him as he cheats on her every week). Other than that they do nothing but argue. They couldn't live together. They definitely don't want kids and they're not even on the same wavelength. They don't understand each other and she's always on his case about where he is and what he's doing (well - obviously there's a major trust issue there too). If it were me, I'd have ended it long ago but then some people aren't blessed with the same amount of balls and brain as me. ha ha. They just plod through life living with second best and lying and arguing their way out of things. That kind of life just doesn't interest me. I'd rather be single forever than go out with a lying, cheating, poncing man again.
That brings me onto another friend of mine. He doesn't have a job so his girlfriend pays for everything. He too cheats on her and in the past she has found out about it. Yet she still wants him and STILL pays for everything! Jeez these girls are so stupid. She pays the rent on his house and even bought him a car. No man is worth that when he's cheating on you regularly. In fact, even if he isn't cheating; no man is worth that full stop. Forgive me for being old-fashioned but unless a man has a job and can pay his own way and/or treat his lady occasionally then he's not a real man. If I can go out to work and earn myself a good living then so can a man. I wouldn't ever want a lay-about boyfriend who sponged off me and did nothing. It's such a turn-off and so un-manly!!! Not that I'm driven by money (far from it) but I need a man to have goals and ambition. I'm driven to make money for myself as I don't like not having any and I wouldn't ever be happy being a "kept" wife. I need my own independence and I need to know that everything I have is my own, bought for with my money that I worked for. I have never been and will never be a gold-digger but even more so I wouldn't want to go out with a bloke who was. Why oh why are girls so stupid?!
Anyway, I am going to go and lie on the sofa for a while wrapped up in a fluffy white blanket with the TV on, an iced water, Paddy and Lyla snuggled up beside me, and a good book. Lauren will be here soon so until then I am going to make the most of my beautifully clean, warm, quiet house.
Have a great Friday night people. Lots and lots of love Jodie x x x
P.S I'll leave you with this quote cos I like it - "We are all looking for a single purpose: to grow in wisdom and learn to love better" Rachel Naomi Remen (1938) US medical reformer and educator
P.P.S Don't forget I'm on TV tonight. 8pm BBC3 Celebrity Scissorhands then it's repeated again at 11.30pm
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