16th October 2006 - I'm being stalked!

Oh my God I'm so tired. It's midnight and I have had less than two hours sleep since yesterday. I have been working since 8am this morning. I am finally on my own and about to go to bed so thought I'd do a blog before I fall asleep.

Last night I lay awake reading until 3am. As you probably know; I am a bit of an insomniac and find it very hard to go to sleep (unless I'm so tired like now that I could fall asleep standing up). I was asleep until about 4.30am when I was woken by my burglar alarm going off. I went downstairs; checked all around, reset it and spoke to the alarm people who had already sent the police out. I'd had a power cut so didn't think there was anything to worry about. Five minutes later the guard dogs next door started going mad and my security lights came on. The lights are all over the front of my house and will only come on if someone walks right past them. I jumped up to look out of the window and saw a car sitting outside my house. I watched for a while contemplating what to do. It was a choice of A) get big gun B) call the police C) press panic button (which goes straight to police) or D) get big gun. The car started to slowly move off. He drove just out of my sight from where I was standing at the window but must have turned around and come straight back, as 10 seconds later he was outside my house again. He rolled slowly past, went up the road, turned around AGAIN and then slowly drove right up onto my drive. He left his headlights on and pointed them straight up onto my house. He stayed there for a good five minutes. By this point I had gun in hand and was on the phone to the police. The police arrived 5 minutes later (about 1 minute after the car had finally gone and not come back). I told them everything; they came in and checked my house over and then they went off to look for the car (which I had given them the details of).

I didn't go back to sleep again as I was too awake so had another read until it was time to get ready for work. God only knows who it was. Clearly either a mad stalker, someone trying to scare me (although that won't work as I'm the scariest person I know!) or it was just a weirdo who thinks it's ok to pull up onto someone's drive at 4.30am?! I don't really care to be honest. It's very annoying to be woken up at that time (especially since when I'm awake I can't go back to sleep) but other than that I am not going to waste my brain power on even thinking about who it might have been. Whoever it was they were a twat and weirdo!

First thing this morning I drove into London for a meeting; a very important meeting. It went extremely well! I called my agent afterwards and he said "how did it go?" I said "honestly? I think she now feels like a hurricane has just swept through her office!" I went in and bombarded her with all the things I wanted to say and I think she was very impressed. I am hoping to work with this special lady soon because she is at the top of her game and she knows exactly where I'm coming from. She also knows I will give 200% to anything I do. Anyway, can't say more than that but it was excellent and I'm very happy with it.

After that I had a few hours to spare and so drove to where my next meeting was, parked up and went to get some lunch and do some shopping. My second thing of the day was to meet my mate Emily Dubberley (best selling author and author of my most recent favourite book I'd Rather Be Single than Settle). We met in a pub for a coffee and catch up first and then we got down to work. I was doing a pre-record chat with her about sex. The full ins and outs of what makes a good lover, how a man can truly please a woman in the bedroom and I also divulged the true key to a man's heart (I'll give you a clue...... it's not through his stomach!). It was a very long and naughty chat and will be available to download and listen to soon. I'll let you know when it's available to listen to! We talked about a few of my ex's and about who was the best in bed. We talked about men's genitals, practising safe sex and what turns us on. I told her some of my own fantasies and bedroom secrets and we also talked about the fact that REAL men are better lovers than celebrity ones. It was a great chat! I then recorded a specially written erotic story. Emily wrote it for me (about me) and it ends up with me meeting a guy who loves me for my brains as well as my body and us having mind-blowing sex! It was GREAT!!!!! So, you will be able to listen to all of that soon. We then went back to the pub to discuss other business matters and to swop horror stories about men!

It was so nice seeing Emily. I haven't seen her for ages. I respect her so mush. She's one of the greatest and most intelligent people I know (she's up there with Sandra Horley - Chief Executive of Refuge and Kate Marlow - life coach and therapist). I feel so amazing when I'm with any one of these people because they are such strong, powerful and wise women! They have all achieved so mush in life and they are so determined and brave. I could pick their brains forever and not get bored and I know they all know the REAL me. They always make time for me and talk to me on the level. I am proud to be able to call them my friends. Emily and I had such a good laugh (plus some amazing conversation). We think the same way and we had each other in stitches. One of the stories I told her just couldn't ever be told on here (I wish it could) but it's my all-time classic sexy/funny/embarrassing story and too rude to be shared on this blog. Maybe I'll start an "adults only" blog but until then I'm afraid I'm not telling anyone other than my good mates. It is the funniest thing that's ever happened to me though (and there have been plenty of those - this one just tops them all!).

I finally left Shepherd's Bush at about 7pm and got home at 8.30pm. Lauren and Jord turned up at mine exactly five minutes after I got home. Jord came armed with food (to cook me dinner) and he went straight into the kitchen and started beavering away while I checked my emails and replied to the important ones (oh and one from Fancy Boy cos it was very funny!). After I'd eaten the divine meal, we all sat down to watch The Da Vinci Code. I loved it. I've read the book a couple of times so I was very excited to see the film (which came out on dvd today - I got in while I was shopping in between work). For some reason I never got to see it while it was at the cinema so I couldn't wait for the dvd. Plus, my TV is as good as, if not better, than any cinema. It's far comfier at mine too! After that Jordan helped me to unpack the new TV for my bedroom. Remember my other one broke after only 6 months and the shop tried to say it had been struck by lightening?! Well, I took it back and got a new one from a different shop so I now have a TV in my bedroom again. This time I got an LCD (HD) instead of a plasma as I personally think they are better quality.

So, after less than two hours sleep and running round London all day; I can honestly say that I am hanging!!! I'm really looking forward to getting into bed and having a cuddle with the dogs. Lyla is being a proper little pain tonight though. I came home earlier to discover she had chewed 4 pairs of my shoes. She's totally wrecked one pair. I had my Gina's fixed that she chewed the other week (the man in the shop was lovely and refused to let me pay for the repair work!). Now I will have to throw one pair away (cos they are completely ruined) and try and get the other 3 pairs mended. I wouldn't mind but she has a million toys here! She's got all sorts of puppy chews and things. Apparently they just aren't as good as a decent pair of shoes though! I've even tried putting a panel of wood up against the shoe rack to stop her getting to them but she manages to pull them out from behind it! She's a handful alright! Paddy was as good as gold as a baby. He never did anything wrong! Lyla is the total opposite and I just know that Paddy despairs of her bad behaviour. Sometimes he just sits and looks at her in disgust (and I'm sure he rolls his eyes!).

So, sorry I haven't got anything more interesting to say!!! I've just been working and shopping... Oooooh but I did get given a brand new Ipod Nano as a present today from the guys from Emily's Sex Talk show. I'm over the moon with that! It's silver and really cute! I didn't expect presents! I was VERY happy with that! You can't beat presents!!!!!

I'm off to bed cos my contact lenses feel like they are glued to my eyeballs and my whole body aches (although I don't know why cos I haven't exerted myself recently, well, other than when I lap-danced on the bar again on Saturday night!). Have a good day and I will write again tomorrow. I have got the day off tomorrow as I am waiting for something to be delivered to my house. No doubt I will be bored and ranting on here.

Lots of love

Xxxx

P.S Fancy Boy; nice try but my pictures are better. I know you're only trying to prove that you CAN look good in a picture after your shocking display at V though! ha ha. It did make me laugh lots though so thanks for that. Like I said in my blog yesterday - I don't need your rejection anymore so don't be sending me fit-arse pictures trying to get me going! It won't work. I won't fall for it! You know you want it - just wake up and smell the coffee babe. Don't be shy; it's ok to want someone but to also be too scared to do anything about it. Sorry, I forgot - my teeth aren't yellow enough for you...... big kiss babe (forced upon you - cos I know you just wouldn't have it any other way!) x x x x