So as I sit and type this there is carnage all around me; I've got two BT engineers here, both my cleaners and Sarah (and Paddy and Lyla shut in the kitchen crying). If you hadn't guessed I'm trying to get my stupid internet sorted. Hopefully they will be able to help. Today me and Sarah have been for a meeting with my agent about all sorts of work offers and also about ideas I have of my own. During the meeting I spoke to about 4 different TV producers on the phone and also met the cute new boy in the office. We came back to Brentwood after for lunch with Carolina and after that came to have a chat with the cleaners. They make us laugh more than anyone we know. We sat chatting for an hour and half and then the BT people turned up so we all got to work. And that's my day......
Obviously I can't just stop there so today kids we are going to talk about a range of subjects.
I found another amazing quote in Emily's book. I'm sorry if this is dragging on now but I'm learning something new every day!! Here goes: "It's the things you HAVEN'T done that you regret most in life" - YES! YES! YES! So true. See - get off your arse and make something happen TODAY cos if you don't you could end up regretting it forever. Stop thinking about the What-ifs and start thinking about the possibilities that are open to you. Life is there for the taking and too many people sit around doing bugger all. If you want to go for that job - go for it. If you want to ask somebody out - do it! Life is too short to settle for second best and to be thinking "what-if". Like I've said before - I'd rather have a straight answer either way. At least that way I have peace of mind and I know that I tried. That said; even if I get a "no" I'll still find another way to reach my goal and I'll keep trying til I get there. I'm not a quitter (reminds me of a great magnet my mum got me for my fridge that says "I'd give up men and chocolate but I'm no Quitter!") anyway, my point is that the quote from her book is completely true. You WILL only regret the things you didn't do when you're laying on your death bed!! You're not gonna regret the things you DID do cos they were all part of life's big learning curve and experiences. Everything you do and every choice you make forms the person you are today. The one thing we do all have in life is a choice. Only we can decide what's best for us or what will make us happy.
This leads me onto another thing (I don't know how but it does!). It's something Dave Courtney told me once: "The fear of fear is worse then the thing you're scared of in the first place". And it's so true again!! For example; if you think someone is going to punch you in the face then generally you'd probably be quite scared but if you actually get hit in the face; it's not that bad! I know cos I have been hit in the face (by a group of jellus girls back in the days when I was working at Hollywoods nightclub). I mean, yeah, it hurt and I got two black eyes but it wasn't actually as bad as the fear I felt in the build up to it when I knew I was about to take a good hiding. The actual punches weren't that bad really (I just bruise easily). I was more shaken up by the whole thing than in any real pain. So you see, the fear of fear is worse than the thing you're scared of. Does that make sense? I hope so cos it made a lot of sense to me when Dave told me it. Perhaps some of the wet blokes I've met recently could use it when thinking of me. ha ha. The fear of shagging me is far worse then actually doing the deed (in fact the deed itself is very nice with me!). Why oh Why are men scared of me?! Also on that subject, I found this quote in another book I'm reading at the moment: "Commit yourself to any decision you make, but if you see it isn't right for you, then change course. The trick in life is not to worry about making a wrong decision, it's knowing when to correct it" - you see? Perfect. Don't have regrets and don't be scared to change things that aren't right.
Another quote from the same book - "You may think others - such as celebrities - are lucky because they are not afraid to put themselves out there. NOT SO! They had to push through a tremendous amount of fear to get where they are today.... And they are still pushing." (of course this doesn't apply to Fran - he just had to shag me to get where he is today and it doesn't apply to anyone of his nature ie. Abi Titmus). This quote DOES apply to me. You see - it must be true cos it says so in a book!!!!
I texted this to someone recently when they were scared about something - "As you continue pushing through fear and doing it anyway, you learn to trust your ability to handle whatever life may throw at you!" - I truly believe it as well. Going back to the thing Dave Courtney said; fear is really all in the mind. The same book (good this book isn't it?!) says "At the bottom of every one of your fears is simply the fear that you can't handle whatever life may bring you" - I rest my case. Stop being scared people - ask for that promotion, dump that nagging bird, ask out that stunning one - whatever it is just do it cos you've got nothing to lose! I called someone today and begged for my own TV show; whether I get it or not is neither here nor there, the point is that I asked and if you don't ask, you don't get!!!
I love picking people's brains and I love being able to take away little sayings or lines that can help you for the rest of your life. When people like Dave come out with a gem like that; I remember them forever and always think back to them when I need help in dealing with something in my mind. Another gem came from Boyzone's Shane Lynch. He told me that often in life we meet people and we are too quick to "place" them. What he meant is that if we meet a fit bloke, we often think "Ooooh - new potential boyfriend/shag/shag-buddy" or whatever. Instead of waiting to see what develops naturally, we flirt and make ourselves available to them. Inevitably it goes wrong (or ALWAYS in my case) and then we lose that person as quickly as we found them. I know that some of you may not believe in God (but even if you don't it still applies) but Shane reckons that God places people in your life for all different reasons and you have to work out the reason. Which is why if you DON'T jump straight into bed with someone or flirt with them; you might find that they turn out to be the best friend you ever had, or be able to help you with your career or be someone that you go into business with (or whatever). His point was that we shouldn't "place" people too quickly, we should get to know them and make a decision about them based on what we know, not on the fact that they are too fit for words (and then possibly ruin what could have been a potentially amazing friendship)! Ha ha. I think he was just trying to calm me down after he realised what a raging nymph I am. Bless him, I love Shane!
Wow - today's blog is thoroughly educating! I've got another bit from Emily's book here. I read it laying in bed last night and thought "I have to share that pearl of wisdom with the world!" here it is:
"...... do you really think the person you're with is 'the one' - do you smile when you think about them, feel happy and content when you're with them and make them feel the same way, as well as fancying the pants off them, wanting to protect them and be protected by them and generally think that the world is a better place for having them in it? If so, great. If not, stay single. Life's too short to waste on dating people you don't really want to be with. That's not to say that you can't have frivolous flings (making sure you practise safe sex), but offering commitment to someone just so that you can say you're in a relationship is one of the easiest ways to add disappointment to your life. And there's also a chance you could miss your perfect mate because you're too ensconced in spending time with someone who's second best......"
Now - go back and read my blog titled "Wed 27th Sept 06 - The One About NOT wanting to fall in love" - it's amazing. I said exactly the same thing before I was even halfway through Emily's book (well, using different words and "Jodie-isms" of course but essentially the very same thing)! Ha ha. Well, you know they say two great minds think alike?! Me and Emily are two very great minds - perhaps that's why we're friends! She's amazing - my kind of woman!!!! I still can't believe we wrote pretty mush the same thing without even knowing it. It's mad!
Since I've been typing this blog I have had two calls from my agent to tell me that two of the phone calls we made today have already paid off. I have two meetings next week with a view to making my own show. See people - you don't ask, you don't get!!!! I'm so excited right now. These are the phone calls I've been waiting for (for a very LONG time). Finally things are coming together and I'm sooooo happy. I want to make amazing TV, not just alright shows. I can honestly say that the only two shows I've truly loved every minute of have been Trust Me I'm a Holiday Rep and The All Star Talent Show. Now I wanna start doing things MY way, making TV gold and having fun. Oh yes!!! I'm so fired up and ready for this. I can't WAIT til next week. I've got a great weekend ahead of me and then next week I am going to be run off my feet. I love it!!!!
I had better be off. The house is finally calm and quiet again and Paddy and Lyla are back in the lounge in their new bed sleeping peacefully. Sarah is watching TV and my internet works!!! No more going to my mum's house at 3am to put a blog on when I can't sleep. Now I can work from home like other normal people! God - everything is so good again all of a sudden. Funny how a few weeks ago I wanted to kill myself and now I feel like I'm floating on fluffy clouds again. God I LOVE life! I hope you are all having as productive a week as me and if not; go and MAKE something happen. Don't be scared, don't be frightened of change and don't sit around waiting for something to happen. You need to get off your backside and do what it is that truly makes you happy. Today I feel happier than I have done in ages (not including the night I won the All Star Talent Show cos I could never feel that happy again - other than if I win it again of course!). I am bursting with excitement and I am going to ring my mum now and tell her all the good news; starting with the fact that I have working internet! Woohoooo! Who'd have thought that in 2006 a few miles out of London you could actually have working internet! Ha ha. It has driven me mad. Even when I was sitting on top of a mountain in Italy on my own (with no shops, bars or even people around me for miles); I could STILL get a great internet connection! Well people, life is on the up again. Jeez; it's just one big rollercoaster ride with me! You never know what you're going to get. But I wouldn't change it for the world!
I love you all (whoever you may be)
Jodie
xxxxx
P.S Emily Dubberley's book I'd Rather Be Single Than Settle is available at www.fusionpress.co.uk - I REALLY do recommend it; and not cos she's my mate, cos she's an amzing writer and the book has done so mush for me (being single and sad!). Go get it girls - you'll never want a crappy man that doesn't deserve you ever again!!!
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