26th April 2006 - The one about people sniggering and MY NEW BOOK!!!

It's 11.23pm and I suddenly have a very quiet house. I've been non-stop talking today and my voice hurts!!!

This morning I was woken at 8.30am by my friendly postman with a package for me. I jumped in the shower and took Paddy into Brentwood afterwards to pay a visit to the pet shop. The back seats on my new car fold up to leave a massive space for whatever you want to put there; in my case it's a dog. I wanted to buy a nice big comfy bed to put there so that Paddy can lie down when we're travelling. Paddy loves it in the pet shop cos the women go nuts over him and always give him loads of treats. I bought him a few new squeaky toys (his favourite) and we came home. Shortly after that Sonia arrived to do my hair and then my mate Paul (who got me through my motorbike test and let me smash his bike up hundreds of times) arrived. While Sonia did my hair, I uploaded pictures to my website and had a proper laugh with Paul. Paul is one of my real friends. He truly knows the real me and understands me. He never judges anything I do and always makes me laugh. Whenever I spend a few hours with him, I feel uplifted and happy for ages afterwards. His humour is spot on and he never fails to tickle me with funny stories about his mates. Likewise; I make him laugh with my bad behaviour and "another man bites the dust" stories.

All in all, I had a great afternoon and laughed til my cheeks hurt. When they both left, my mum phoned and asked if I wanted to go over to theirs for dinner. I said yes and was there half an hour later. We all sat and ate together and just as we finished, Lauren arrived. We then went back to my house with Jordan not far behind and then Michelle arrived. We spent the evening chatting and laughing and watching Kyle on the shopping channel. He does the shopping channel about 2 days a week, selling hair pieces and wigs. I Sky-Plus every single one and we always watch them back. He's so good on it and I find it quite therapeutic to watch; especially when I'm on my own - it's like having him in the room with me! After that we looked at the photos from the P.A I did recently in Basildon where Michelle and Lauren got dressed up in silly clothes from the dressing room and went out on stage and did a warm-up act for me! The pics will be on the site soon; they're very funny.

So, today has been non-stop laughter and talking. I've seen 4 of my best mates (although one wasn't actually here but on the TV all day) and I'm now gearing myself up for the weekend. Tomorrow night and Friday night Jordan has gigs and I'm going to both. He then has a night off on Saturday so I am going out partying with Lauren, Kyle and Michelle and then on Sunday Kyle and I fly to Dublin and come back Monday. It's going to be heavy but I can't wait.

On a totally different note; I've had a row with my doctor's surgery. Remember a few weeks ago I thought I had a kidney infection and was in so mush pain I could hardly walk and the doctor wouldn't come out to see me because I had moved house?! Well.... My dad has since spoken to them on the phone and tried to find out why I can no longer be registered to the surgery when my new house is in fact CLOSER to the surgery than my old house. They couldn't seem to give a valid reason so my dad argued my case for me. The point is, I've been going to that surgery since I was 3 years old. That's 24 years! I have in fact moved closer to the surgery and I'm quite well known. When I go to the surgery for anything, nobody (in the waiting room) bats an eyelid at me as I have lived in Brentwood all my life. I feel comfortable going there and know all the doctor's by name. None of the doctors or nurses bat an eyelid at me as they have been treating me since I was a child. I don't think half of them even know I'm in the public eye (or care for that matter). I like it that way. I don't want to have to walk into a brand new doctor's surgery where everyone will snigger and whisper "it's Jodie Marsh!" as they inevitably will (I get it everywhere I go) and I don't want some random bloke who only knows me as "the famous Jodie Marsh" looking at my private bits and/or hearing my, what could be, embarrassing problems or illnesses. I mean I feel ok about telling my doctor of 24 years that I've had an upset stomach for 3 days but I don't want to tell a stranger that when they are blatantly going to go home and tell their wife/kids/mates that "Jodie Marsh" was in today with the squirts. Ha ha. Sorry - not the most pleasant subject, I know; but I'm right in my argument here. I can't go anywhere without people knowing who I am and wanting to either talk to me, get a picture of me, get my autograph or just shout abuse at me. It's exciting to see someone from the TV and people love nothing more than to be able to say they got close to someone famous once. And you don't get closer than seeing them half undressed lying on a table on top of a bit of paper. I know there's supposed to be patient confidentiality and all that but don't tell me that every single person working in a doctor's surgery is a saint. They're only human and would no doubt find it amusing that a "celeb" had been in. Years ago, an ex-boyfriend of mine worked in a hospital. He was only 17 and a junior in the office but he had access to all the patient's files. I remember that a celeb lived in the area and he often looked up his name in the files to see his records. He even told me one day that the celeb had been in for a bowel problem! He found it amusing; I didn't. I thought it was wrong but when he was bored and no one was around, he'd even look up his mates and old school teachers etc. He liked seeing what complaints/illnesses they'd had.

So, cut a long story short; I've had to write a begging letter to the surgery putting all my reasons for wanting to stay registered there. They are now going to look at my case and make a decision. It's ridiculous. First and foremost, like I said before, my new house is closer to the bloody surgery than my old one; so how I'm now out of their "catchment area" I'll never know?! Secondly, there's the fact that I'm well known and don't want to go to a new surgery where I'll be stared at like a circus animal and feel uncomfortable talking to a stranger. Thirdly I have been going there for 24 years and have always been happy there (except when the doctor told me my kidney infection was just "back pain") and fourthly, if I do have to register at a new surgery then it'll no doubt be a Romford one, which is one area I don't go often and I'd be stared at even more! I'm still waiting on a reply. I begrudge every single penny I pay to the government in taxes as I don't actually see what I get for my money - I can't even get treated by a doctor in the very area I live in!!!!

That's my rant for the day over. I'll let you know what happens. In between writing this blog, I have been on the phone to Kyle for 2 hours. I've been trying to talk him through how to send a multimedia message but his phone is playing up so I'll have to wait til I see him to see the picture he was trying to send me. It's now 2.20am and I am going to bed with my book and Paddy (for a change). You'll probably all read this tomorrow so I hope you have a good day. I've got about three hours worth of tidying up to do before my cleaners get here (at the moment there are two rooms that are so full of clothes they wouldn't even be able to clean them!) and then I will be taking Paddy for his walk and coming home to get ready for the gig tomorrow night. My hair looks lush, thick and blonde and I am looking forward to a weekend of dressing up and causing carnage, starting from tomorrow night.

Lots of love

Xxxxx

P.S Jordan's songs (not the trappy, moody one but my gorgeous, talented brother) are here:

www.myspace.com/jordanandthesection

Have a listen to them. Especially listen to "My Time is Right" as it's for all the people who said he and I would never make it........

P.P.S I got the final printed copy of my new book today - the updated paperback version. There are loads of new pics in it (inlcuding ones of Lee Francis AKA Avid Merrion, Phillip Olivier, Paul Weller, Kenzie, behind the scenes on Trust Me I'm a Holiday Rep with Jordan Knight from New Kids on the Block, Sky Diving with Har Mar Superstar, my naked PETA add campaign, my fancy dress birthday party, me on my motorbike etc etc) and there are no less than 6 new chapters!!! Everything is in there since I finished writing the original book, including my relationships with Kenzie, Scott Wright (from Corrie), Shakey Bryne (Moto GP rider), Cris judd and a secret A List celeb who tried to get me over his one night for some action. I have also told the truth on how I feel about Big Brother and all the people who were in it with me. It's fab. I wrote it myself from start to finish (I didn't have a ghost-writer like everybody else), I personally chose all the pictures and I just know you are going to love it. It's very graphic, very sexy, a little bit sad and very funny. It shows what it's really like to be famous and also shows who I really am. I put my heart and soul into it and if you liked the original one then you are going to LOVE the updated paperback. If you saw the beautiful quote I finished the first book with and liked it, then you're going to love the quote I finish the update with. It's just as poignant and beautiful. It's not long now til it hits the shops. I'm very excited. I only have two copies for myself so far and I have already given one to my mum and dad. They laughed their heads off when I showed them some of the new pictures in the book and couldn't wait to read it. Even Michelle and Lauren have been fighting over my last copy tonight, wanting to read the update. I'll let you know when it hits the shelves!!!! Joy!!!!!