25th February 2006 - He Loves me!!!!!

It's Saturday night. Me, Lauren and Dave are watching Stars in Their Eyes (the kids version). I only started to feel normal about half an hour ago, after the heaviest night of all time last night. Yesterday I was picked up at 8am and taken to a studio in London to get my make up done. I then got driven to the West End to do a photoshoot for Closer Magazine. I can't say what it was but it was the weirdest, funniest, most horrible day all in one. Don't get me wrong, we all managed to have a laugh but it's not something I want to repeat in a hurry. All will be revealed soon. Hideous!

I finished up at around 5.30pm and my mate Dean came to meet me at the hotel we were in. We had a cheeky drink at the bar there then jumped in a black cab to go to Leicester Square, where my sexy boyfriend and Rusty were setting up their equipment with their band for the evening's gig. I dropped my stuff off from the photoshoot, and Dean and I went to the bar next door to carry on drinking. At this point, I should mention that I had already had a few vodkas during the day (to help me get through the day - trust me, it was that bad!). Dave and Russ came to meet us as soon as they had finished sound checking and then all 5 of the band came with me and Dean to get something to eat. Lauren and Tony trumpet had jumped on the train straight after work and they joined us too. After we'd eaten we went back to the venue and got on it!!!!

The boys were amazing on stage. I only actually watched Dave (and took loads of pictures of him). He was soooooo great. Tony turned to me at one point, while I was dreamily grinning at Dave, and said in my ear "He's going to properly get it tonight isn't he?!" After they finished, we all went into the VIP room out the back and drunk a load more. By this point, we were all feeling quite warm and merry and someone had the bright idea to stay out drinking in London (originally, we had planned to go straight home after the gig). It then occurred to me that Kyle was at China Whites, so I rounded everyone up and Dave's mum and dad drove us round there in the back of the gig van. We totally took over the VIP room, there were about 15 of us in total. We stayed there til 3am, by which point I was so drunk I could hardly stand. My shoes were off half an hour after we arrived, due to my feet bleeding from wearing killer heels all day. Dave was worried I might tread in some glass and kept asking me to put them back on, but being the stubborn cow I am, I wouldn't listen.

China Whites was really good. Dave and I spent the whole 3 hours we were there, kissing in the corner. I think we only parted lips to take quick sips of our drinks and then we were back at it again. Last night, we became the embarrassing couple who no one wants to look at and who desperately need to get a room! I loved every second of it though. It occurred to us today that we were totally unaware of anybody else even being there. We were so wrapped up in each other and kissing and gazing into each other's eyes that it was like no one else even existed. Oh..... and Dave told me he loves me!!!!!!! Sorry Dave, I know that loads of people are going to read this and probably give you stick now but I need to report all serious happenings in my life and I think that's quite a major event. I told him I love him too, which is true; I do. I'm floating in the clouds at the moment. I honestly feel lost when Dave isn't with me. He's so beautiful to look at and I find myself staring at him the whole time we're together. I know we've only been together for two weeks but; due to being friends for two years, it actually feels like we've been together forever. I can't think of a relationship where I've been this happy or loved up before. Seriously, going out with your best mates is the way forward!!

Anyway, I don't want to go on and on about it and bore you rigid/make you jellus/make you feel sick with my mushy loved-up talk. I think it's obvious that I'm extremely happy at the moment and I'm hoping Dave meant what he said and that he didn't just say it cos he was drunk.

Me, Lauren, Tony and Dave shared a cab back to mine and dave had a job on his hands trying to get me into bed. I sat whimpering on my dressing room floor for half an hour cos I couldn't undress myself (he ended up doing it for me). I clumsily took my lenses out and Dave peeled my false eyelashes off. When he did manage to get me in bed, I crashed out. I woke up this morning to two guys at the door (at 9am) who were here to install my Sky TV. Nursing the worst hangover in the world, I stayed in bed and Dave dealt with them. They even came into the bedroom and drilled holes in the wall while I slept on. When I did manage to get up, I was sick and had the shakes. Dave was amazing and stayed with me and made me feel better. We then went out for lunch with his sister and back to his afterwards, where I crashed out on his bed for another hour.

Dave has now fallen asleep on the sofa after getting annoyed that Christina Aguilera won Stars in their Eyes over Jackie Wilson. Lauren is watching The Simpsons and we are waiting for Kyle to get here so that we can go out tonight. Right now, I feel like I'm never going to drink again but I know that when I make it out, I'll probably have a couple. Hopefully we won't have too heavy a night though and I'll get to spend all of tomorrow wrapped in Dave's arms.

Hope you all have a great Saturday night, whatever you get up to. I'll be gazing lovingly at Dave wherever we end up and no doubt, blissfully unaware of anything going on around me.

Speak to you soon

I'M IN LOVE...........................................................!!!!!!! YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!