19th January 2006 - ENOUGH NOW!!!!

I am SERIOUSLY sick of talking about "it". I haven't watched a single episode since I've been out and don't want to. As if I'd want to see the 3 faces of doom ever again (Pete, Michael, George)?! Apparently I am contracted to go to the last eviction winner's night. Filth. I have tried desperately to get out of it but it's a no-win situation. If I don't go then I won't get paid for the whole thing and I AM NOT going to allow that to happen. Apart from meeting Chantel, the only good thing about doing BB was the amount I was getting paid. AS IF I'm gonna go through that whole vile public shredding for free?! Erm, no. So, it looks like I will be at the final night, with about 4 minders (to keep the evil bastards from getting any where near me) and an entourage of friends who will also look after me. I understand that it's kind of necessary that I make a final appearance but under the circumstances, you'd think they would let me off. I honestly don't want to see any of them again (except Chantel and possibly Preston) and still cannot sleep at night for thoughts of being raped and beaten by three ugly old men (which is what it felt like). Anyway, Dave is here now, we're going into Brentwood for some food with Stevie and I am going to enjoy my first afternoon off. Will write again later............